❤️-Day

I am going to avoid all the stores for the next 15 days. I remember doing the same thing last year. This is the time of year the aisles are stocked with red and pink and hearts and love! Cards promising forever. Always and forever, what a lie. That's the lie I bought into, the lie I believed with all my heart. The lie that left it shattered!

I know some of you will relate. The pain that accompanies a person when they have been betrayed by the love of their life.

                     

Those colors of love everywhere, but you don’t feel the love you just feel alone. You avoid looking people in the eye. That has been the hardest thing for me, actually looking people in the eye. I try and avoid it at all cost. 

I can’t even look in a mirror because all I see is an empty shell of who I once was. The many times spent dry heaving and throwing up over the truth of all of it. 

The ache in your heart in the morning and the fear at night.  The deep pain you don’t know how to describe to others who haven’t lived it. Opening the scriptures an the questions that fill your head. Sitting in church listening to talks on family and marriage is one of my deepest sorrows and pain. 

Don’t even get me started on all the love songs on the radio. I couldn’t listen to it for months just drove in silence, which I rare for me. I can’t stand the sound of the road.  You just feel numb. 

  The words that have been spoken, that shattering of your heart and the betrayal is not a reflection of you or how the Savior loves you. 

Rejection is painful, it’s Brutal. It makes you feel like you don’t matter. That your nothing.

God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son.
I know the Savior died on the cross for me, I know he has watched every tear and heard every sobbing prayer. He felt my hurting. He knows every emotion I feel.

                                                 

That love is better than any card, flower, or Chocolate, the colors of love. He will never discard you for someone else, he will never lie to you or betray you. Letting his love feel your heart when you feel like hiding. He knows you, he hears you, and he wants you to feel LOVE. 
WHY? 
BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU!!!